Tattered Seams
I have a theory that behind every confident person is a series of mishaps that noone ever sees. People always view me as a confident person who has it all together, but I know that I am no different than them.
Why Tattered Seams?
Tattered Seams....the kind at the bottom of your shirt or pants that you know should try to fix so that you can look so put together on the outside... to hide how not put together you are in the inside.
The best way to find yourself, is to lose yourself in the service of others."
— Ghandi
I have a roommate for the past 5 months and there are so many things about the way she acts that makes me not want to be like her at all. Yet, given that I had the same thoughts and feelings as her, I see how they could translate into how she is acting.
And lately I spend a lot of time asking the question: How do I let myself have feelings without letting them turn into actions? Or, is it that I should be thinking more about what kind of actions I should turn them into?
For now, I'm not working on that. I've got enough to worry about.
At my volunteer job when I'm a little late emailing logos and files, I say "I'm working on it."
So it was only natural that when it's my life that needs fixing, I think to myself "I'm working on it."
I AM working on it. Whatever it is that needs fixing.. I'm working on it. I taped a note next to the mirror in my bedroom and it says "Work on Melissa."
I figured those three words were enough to remind me that daily I need to make decisions based on fixing me. And I'm working on some really big decisions. I want to quit my volunteer job and kick out my roommate.
Have I exactly told them I'm doing that... well, I'm working on it.
Tattered Seams
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bleeding heart
"Go into yourself. Find out the reason that commands you to write; see whether it has spread its roots into the very depths of your heart; confess to yourself whether you would to die if you were forbidden to write. This most of all: ask yourself in the most silent hour of your night: must I write?" -Rainer Maria Rilke
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